The Good, The Bad, and The Ugly

How much that title references my life right now! I am begging the Lord for support and I feel like I'm in the rain constantly. Right now I'm having chest pain from all the stress I'm suffering, and I can't stop crying. This is my life in a nutshell. An episode happens at least once a week or more. The bad dreams have subsided lately, which is good, but I wonder for how long. And I wish that my dead Dad would stop coming back into my dreams. I know what is wrong and I have dealt with it. Still he haunts me...

I have been losing weight as of late and its great!!! I've dropped 7 pounds so far... YAY!!!! So progress is being made. I am starting to feel less sluggish too! My pysche doc put me on some new medication that won't raise my blood sugar and it is working great! Thank GOD for that! I'm starting to feel like I can be more active, which is a good thing because I have scheduled a vacation with my sister and my husband in the first of October in FL that should be fantastic!!!
She is just as excited as me. I can't wait...but my main goal is, I will have lost 20-40 pounds by then. I thought 20 was a healthy goal, and 40 was a wishing goal, so I'm not setting my expectations high. I can tell you what is really working: SlimQuick drink packets, SlimFast, and Special K Protein Water and cereal. It is doing a wonder with my cravings, they are nearly non existent! So I eat breakfast, skip lunch, eat dinner, and use the beverages to tide over my cravings and munchies at night. WHOOOHOO!!!

Now the ugly part: WageWorks, the healthcare spending account company that manages money on a pre-tax basis for paying for medical expenses has suspended my card because they think I've made suspicious transactions. If I wasn't sick, do you think I would be wasting my money on a doctor? Then I submit the verification and they say they won't pay! And then on top of it all, the customer service SUCKS ASS!!!! I don't hate many things in life, because the Lord says you shouldn't, but I HATE WAGEWORKS!!! And if you hear about your company using them, RUN, RUN FAR AWAY!

Now for my overall status...I feel like killing someone or something. That is an honest and strong feeling. Am I going to? No. But with the way things are going in my life, I can't deal that well. At least I'm accomplishing one goal, losing some weight. Now if I could just get to work on what's inside.

Thanks and Love You All!

R